I wonder...
..how is it possible that life and its meaning can change at any second for anyone..
..how can sometimes a person mean the world to somebody..
..how can i be missing u this much even before u left, when i usually miss nobody, at least not like this..
..if it is a bless or a curse that i get to miss only one person at a time..
It's a fact that...
..i know that not being able to miss people as a normal human being is kinda sad just by itself for the rest, but it's not something i chose for myself, it's just the way i am..
..i don't enjoy having to lie most the time, even being the worst at lying, when i say that i'm gonna miss someone..
..i'm missing u with all my heart and somehow i'm sure that if i tell u this there are two things that can happen, u are gonna think i'm mad or u are gonna say that u miss me too.. but u're far away and i don't want to ruin the happy times u might be having surrounded by your family, even when it isn't the perfect one.. don't u worry, nobody has a perfect one..
But i'm happy after all coz..
..u made me remember what is to hopelessly love someone with no hidden agenda, with no idea on how to play the pursuit of happiness, which for me is you..
..now, when i look up to the stars, i smile thinking of u and feeling my heart going a little faster..
..even if i don't get to be by your side, you've already given me more than anybody else..
..u got into my heart and my mind all at once and broke everything that was wrong there, and now i'm building myself again in a more confident way, even when i still have no idea of who i am.. it's a scary place, but i started by opening all the windows for it to be full of light, for it to be a nice place to be when i'm on my own..
..i want to shine again.. not for the rest, just for myself and probably for you too.. for you to be proud of what you've done to me even without thinking about it..

I used to think it was a very corny thing to say, but...
..i love you for who i am when i'm with you, and for who you are when you're with me..
..i love you for who i've become and for who you are on your own..
..i love you for your angelical smile that makes everything worth it..
..i love you for your eyes, so sweet and full of life..
..i love you for the unique way you have to speak..
..i love you when you, walking away, look back catching me staring at you and smile..
I guess all of it can be said in a quite simple phrase.. I love you just because i do.